I feel like weight gain and loss is such a controversial topic. Over the years I've noticed the pendulum like effect of fat shaming, then skinny shaming etc.
I had something happen to me about a month ago that made me rethink a lot of stuff. I am a pretty average framed, size 12 woman. With a little bit of pudge in certain places like anyone else. I want to be fitter and stronger. I've always loved being fit and strong looking and feeling. So when I put weight on last year it knocked me for six, because I wasn't used to having a bit of extra weight in places that I wasn't used to. So I lost most of it. Then after the wedding put some of it on again. And am now a pound lighter than I was when I got married. I've noticed that weight loss or weight gain depending on your life and experiences will always be a personal journey. But there will ALWAYS be people there to try and knock you down a peg. Regardless of what it is that you're trying to achieving in relation to your weight. I had mentioned in work one time that I had taken caffeine tablets to help my weight loss (I still feel the need to justify my actions even here) (I was sensible with them and didn't abuse them in the slightest) Someone in the same room told me that I didn't need to lose weight. To which I corrected what I said; that I had got to a pretty heavy weight last year and did need to lose weight in order to be healthy. (I wasn't healthy at that stage with my eating habits hence why I put weight on) I had made a small joke about something that really impacted me about how when I was in Debenhams last year I didn't fit into a size 14 pair of jeans, but in actual fact this really upset me. Someone made a remark about how they'd love to be able to fit into a size 14 and then made a passive aggressive point about whether with this new information about size 14 being "fat" that maybe they should consider losing weight. This want what I was getting at when I was having this conversation. I wasn't implying that a size 14 is "fat". I understand that some people will naturally have bigger or smaller frames than others meaning some will carry more weight than others. For my height, size 14 wasn't ideal for optimum health. I just brushed it off because I don't have to justify myself to them. This is a personal journey for me. But it did annoy me. How dare they try and twist my words to insinuate that I am losing weight unenessarily, borderline eating disorder and making something personal to me, about them. Back track a few years and I remember a close family member disclosing to me that she was depressed, she sought help but along the way she regressed into rekindling an eating disorder she had from a young age. I remember her saying in the hallway of my house that she felt fat and would pull at different parts of her body. She indeed wasn't fat in the slightest. I remember saying to her "if you think you're fat then what am I??" I have been on both ends of this spectrum. I have been the person making someone's struggle/journey about me. And have been on the receiving end of the same thing. I feel bad for doing this. However I was 18, maybe 19 at the time and was relatively niave about people's thought processes. I know better now and am more sensitive and open to how other people don't always see things as I do and will have different life events and circumstances that have provided them with a different view point on life. Weight loss is a personal journey. It isn't anyone elses business if you want to lose/gain weight for your own health (excluding eating disorders desire to lose weight from this) People will always be there to critisise and poke holes in your reasoning. You don't need to justify yourself to anyone but yourself. People will critisise for many reasons. I've found the most common one is because they see you're trying to better yourself in some way. (not exclusive to losing weight.) And see that as a personal attack on them because they haven't done anything similar to what you're doing in order to better themselves. See it as a personal battle that they are facing, and move on with your life making your own decisions.
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AuthorI am a 25 year old nurse, who is trying to find herself. This blog will contain epiphanies I have, my yoga progress and other such things. Enjoy. :) Archives
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